i know the feelings we shared were more than just a fantasy. we shared more than just words. i remember not so long ago how happy you were and just thinking of me put a smile on your face. you felt more loved than you ever have before. i made you feel things that every woman wants to feel and did it from twelve hundred miles away as if i was right there beside you. all the times life knocked you down i was there to help you stand back up. i could make your heart melt by wooing your socks off. i would out of the blue write poems to you confessing my love. i remember making you shake with your heart beating so hard and fast. i shared every emotion you had with you. feeling what you felt. every time you needed me i was there for you. you used to miss me and think about me all the time and i did the same for you. i remember everything, everything. i remember day after day falling even more in love with you
     i'm being told now that you wasn't the person i thought you was and that i'll never find out what really happened. i'll never have closure from this. that this wasn't the first time you've done this to someone and that you'll probably do it again to someone else. i don't want to believe any of that. but, maybe there is some truth behind some of it. then again, i guess i will never know. the hope i had is almost all but gone. i gave you all the love i had to give. there is no love left in me, only the feeling of emptiness. one day i will show you what you gave up on in me. i may not be a better person but i will be a different person from all of this. everyone needs a cause to believe in and stand up for. i think i finally found mine. i hope that someday it may help others the way it was meant to help you. i learned that you can't help someone who doesn't want to help themselves. one day you will. i just hope it's there when you need it.